I celebrated my 24th birthday two days ago. The week of my birthday I was very excited about my big day. I was going to hang out with my friend Keshia in Winston, then I was going to party that Saturday. As 12 am I realized that I was going to be alone for my birthday. This was the first time I was totally alone at the start of my birthday. Years prior I've been with boo, family and/or friends. An overwhelming sense of loneliness began to come over me. I was hoping my guy friend would come and hang out with me but I heard nothing from him.
12 am came and I was officially 24 years old. The text messages began to roll in from friends and well wishers. I went to bed feeling totally alone and woke up alone. I'll be honest, I was pissed with the guy I was seeing. He wasn't with me and he sent a "Happy bday!!!" text like we aren't way more than that. I was sitting in my house sulking. I had to leave and do something for me. I went shopping for a birthday outfit.
That made me feel a little better, then I went to lunch with a good friend. She always brings good energy. I was telling her about the funk I was in and she made me aware that I was never alone. She is absolutely right. I'm never alone. I have a supportive family, good friends, and I'm blessed. True, my guy sucks sometimes but I have so many positive things in my life. I have too many blessings to count. Thank you God for another year. I have 24 years on me. 24karats baby! Doesn't get any better than that.
Peace & Blessings,
Brooks
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Better days
My mother always told me if you can't say anything nice don't say anything at all. Therefore I want say some things. I'm frustrated with msy job. We do good work but I wish some things were different.
Due to my frustration I've had an epiphany. I now know that it is time for me to move on. I need to go back to school and pursue my master's. Everyday isn't going to be a great day but I shouldn't have to dread going to work EVERYDAY.
So while I try to hold on until September to finish my 1 year committment I'll echo the sentiments of my guy Anthony "I'm holding on to the future for my better days"
Due to my frustration I've had an epiphany. I now know that it is time for me to move on. I need to go back to school and pursue my master's. Everyday isn't going to be a great day but I shouldn't have to dread going to work EVERYDAY.
So while I try to hold on until September to finish my 1 year committment I'll echo the sentiments of my guy Anthony "I'm holding on to the future for my better days"
Sunday, May 23, 2010
The Mr. Big Ride
Like many women I know "Sex and the City" holds a special place in my heart. Carrie, Samantha, Miranda and Charlotte remind me of my girlfriends and myself. My favorite thing about the show is the relationship between Carrie and Mr. Big. Big is so handsome and charming but he comes with so much baggage.
Ladies, why are we constantly attracted to the man with baggage? He's smooth, funny, and usually good in bed but this man can't committ. He's everything you want in a man except he gets ghost. Why does Big have so much baggage?
I understand Carrie's rollercoaster ride with Big. You all know the Mr. Big ride. Your emotions are high because he's all into you and then emotions are low because he needs to figure out what he wants. Like Carrie, my guy was older and so interesting. I loved being him but he always had an excuse of why we could not fully committ. I was on this ride for six years. But with all rollercoasters there has to be an end.
Ladies and gentleman, as we wait in anticipation of Sex and the City 2 please let's not so blind in believing that our Mr. or Mrs. Big will come around. Carrie had to wait 10 years! People rollercoaster are great, the ride is fun but you have to get off and step into reality.
Peace and Blessings,
Brooks
Ladies, why are we constantly attracted to the man with baggage? He's smooth, funny, and usually good in bed but this man can't committ. He's everything you want in a man except he gets ghost. Why does Big have so much baggage?
I understand Carrie's rollercoaster ride with Big. You all know the Mr. Big ride. Your emotions are high because he's all into you and then emotions are low because he needs to figure out what he wants. Like Carrie, my guy was older and so interesting. I loved being him but he always had an excuse of why we could not fully committ. I was on this ride for six years. But with all rollercoasters there has to be an end.
Ladies and gentleman, as we wait in anticipation of Sex and the City 2 please let's not so blind in believing that our Mr. or Mrs. Big will come around. Carrie had to wait 10 years! People rollercoaster are great, the ride is fun but you have to get off and step into reality.
Peace and Blessings,
Brooks
Labels:
confusion,
relationships,
unrequitted love
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Forgotten History
Most people in Greensboro know about the A&T 4, the four freshman who are credited with starting the Sit-in movement during the civil rights era of American history.
But have you heard of the Greensboro Massacre or have you heard of Kwame Cannon? Let's remember our history. I'll write more on this subject but for lack of time follow this link. It is very interesting. Please, let's not forget history.
Peace & Blessings,
Brooks
Relationship Strain
Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls it has been a long time since I've been in a relationship and in my first week of commitment I have found one thing to be true...cellular phone plans and service can MAKE or BREAK your relationship.
it's frustrating because we're not in the same city and his phone plan sucks. I thought most legitimate cell phone companies nights started at 7 but not his. I'm not that type of person who needs to talk all day. I prefer not to, but a simple text to say "hey, just thinking of you" would be nice. I can't get that because he doesn't have text messages.
Relationships are not easy, both parties have to put effort into making it work. However, conflicting schedules and different cell phone providers is making this more difficult than I expected. So for all my people who are doing the long distance thing AND have different cell phone providers I am in solidarity with you. Stay positive.
Peace & Blessings,
Brooks
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Hell...I can't call it
If you asked me six years ago how would my life be in six years I would have told you I'd graduate in four years with a degree in electrical engineering making big money. Needless to say, life didn't pan out the way I expected it to. I graduated in five years with a degree in Professional History. I work almost 40 hours a week at a non-profit and make little to no money, but it's all good. I've found what I wanted to do, I have a passion for helping people and improving bad situations.
But the biggest thing that is a surprise to me is my love life. After 4 years of dealing with a man 13 years older than me I now am in a relationship with a guy 3 years YOUNGER than me. I'm slightly old fashioned and believe that I woman should date a man her age or older. However, I had to go out on a limb and give my coco a chance. If i could deal with a guy 13 years older than me I'll be able to deal with a guy closer my age. I still have my reservations about dating a younger man, but I'm not going to sabotage this based on my ideologies of relationships and dating.
I only have my dreams and can only work hard to achieve my goals.So, farewell to all predictions on life because I clearly can't call it!
Peace,
Brooks
But the biggest thing that is a surprise to me is my love life. After 4 years of dealing with a man 13 years older than me I now am in a relationship with a guy 3 years YOUNGER than me. I'm slightly old fashioned and believe that I woman should date a man her age or older. However, I had to go out on a limb and give my coco a chance. If i could deal with a guy 13 years older than me I'll be able to deal with a guy closer my age. I still have my reservations about dating a younger man, but I'm not going to sabotage this based on my ideologies of relationships and dating.
I only have my dreams and can only work hard to achieve my goals.So, farewell to all predictions on life because I clearly can't call it!
Peace,
Brooks
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Mommy I want to be,..
As a young adult I still have a hard time answering the question "What do you want to be when you grow up?" Seems like after 5 years of college (yes 5 years!) I would be able to answer that so called simple question. Well today my friends I have an answer!
I want to be...
an author
a photographer
musician
documentarist
teacher
philanthropist
Momma I want to do it all. But where do I start??
I want to be...
an author
a photographer
musician
documentarist
teacher
philanthropist
Momma I want to do it all. But where do I start??
Letter to my Virtual Audience
Dear Virtual Audience,
The point of a blog is to express yourself with word so that the audience can become more familiar with the writer. I'll be honest in the tellings of my journey through love, career moves, and the daily goings of my life. I hope we can become good acquaintancies With that being said, please come back again. I look forward to builing a relationship with u, you...and definitely YOU.
Peace and Blessings,
Brooks
The point of a blog is to express yourself with word so that the audience can become more familiar with the writer. I'll be honest in the tellings of my journey through love, career moves, and the daily goings of my life. I hope we can become good acquaintancies With that being said, please come back again. I look forward to builing a relationship with u, you...and definitely YOU.
Peace and Blessings,
Brooks
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